Shades of Blue


“The silent epidemic of depression affects millions of people and takes dozens of lives everyday, while our culture grapples with a stigma against open discussion of mental health issues.

Editor Amy Ferris has collected these stories to illuminate the truth behind that stigma and offer compassion, solidarity, and hope for all those who have struggled with depression.

Shades of Blue brings the conversation around depression and sadness into the open with real, first-hand accounts of depression and mental health issues, offering empathy to all those who have been affected by these issues. It’s time to scream out loud against this silent annihilator: We are not alone.

Shades of Blue,  edited by Amy Ferris, now available from Seal Press Order it here

It’s one of the scariest things I’ve ever done- telling the world my secret. But in preparation for the release of Shades of Blue, Amy Ferris asked us to think about why we began writing about our depression in the first place. She wanted us to share what it feels like to share our deepest darkest secrets with the world.

I had been working on this piece for over a year, this essay that would somehow miraculously work its way into Shades of Blue. I had stumbled upon Jen Pastiloff on Facebook and her writing blew me away. Her honesty and authenticity awakened something in me that said, “Hey, You! Yeah, you…..You know you don’t have to hide anymore, right?”=

She inspired me in a way that made me think I could do anything and so I started writing in attempt to bring myself up to snuff with “becoming a writer”– but mostly it involved, “becoming human” as Jen calls it. She held my hand as I ventured out into uncharted waters with a pencil as my oar. She showed me the meaning of the word sister. She showed me the meaning of the word “tribe.” Continue reading “Shades of Blue”